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Saturday, June 03, 2006

decided to shift dis entry here frm the other blog..

17th may

i feel: happy
today's favourite: if i fall - amber pacific

let's welcome everyday

i presume that i've been clinging on to the past too much. hoping that things will be as flawless as before. but no. people, things, environment, beliefs and perspectives change, changed - life changes. my used-to-be PERFECT life has metamorphosed into an ugly picture; that time and again causes perplexity and exasperation in my everyday life - in which has a domino effect on my mood that left me completely flammoxed at my recent thoughts, behaviour and esp reactions towards many situations. of cos, i cant justify them in a god-knows-why basis. i should source out counteracts to the root of the issue(s) asap before things get worse than what they already are. however, i find myself back to sq one when i ask myself what's de root of de problem? -- god knows why. -.- giel sucks.

sad to say, yet admit it. we all cant go back to how we used to be. those carefree and wonderful lifestyles.. we hav A's, we cant play as much.. going everywhere we like to and going home anytime we wish. reminiscing needs no sacrifice. but living and hoping to live the past says otherwise. we have to look fwd, prepare ourselves to challenge come-what-may.. we learnt, we grew frm where we came frm. should nv lament over what's gone but rejoice for they happened.. we gained so much frm those bygones, didn't we? it's time for us to gain n learn frm other aspects through a totally different way.. might be long, tough and boring, u noe.. but we'll definitely find little surprises in our seemingly nondescript lives up ahead..=) people that are meant to stay won't leave. people who are willing to stay, won't abandon u. someone dear might be separated frm u, either taking a detour back into ur life or was jus leaving a space for someone better to walk alongside u. if things are already bad enough, they won't get worse; if they do, shows that those aren't the worst u can take. u're still surviving! so do i. rmb, no matter i noe u or not, u're not facing this suck up whole alone, i'm with u.

anw, congrats to SAJC rugby team!! we won the police rugby cup!! champion of 2006!!=D good fight put up by both rj n sa players. both teams were equally strong, stood equal chance to win and wanted it as much. eventually, one of them gotta want it more than the other. n jus as sa scored the winning goal, it proved sa wanted it perhaps a bit more at that instant. rj was really good though.. they could have been the champ. but could-have-been-s are consolation of what didn't achieve. fight hard again next yr rafflesian! i noe u will, but we will too.=)

nv look back.. no matter how beautiful or unsightly it is behind. u gotta move on since ur journey's not over and destination's not reached. till then, approach ur Final Destination. (HAHA! could it be the new FD4 slogan?? hmmm. how lame.)

penned at*5:21 PM