Tuesday, October 11, 2005
today was good. got sudden motivation to train real hard. jumped de gallery stairs up n down 20 times. wanna do more.. but got tempted to play bball. n i won again for bullet!!! whoo! ps: u din train hard enuff. jia you yea?=P
went harbour's subway for dinner wif darls n yiqin. dere was once i was sitting dere n we were all jokin n laughin n fooling ard.. i dunno y, but dis kinda happiness seemed lik it WAS mia for very very long time. but glad dat it was back. perhaps for a very long time, it had not been lik all de darls n me r in good mood - due to exam? stress? pms? i dunno. but was so glad we were all not moody now. maybe i was de only one who felt sth weird WITHIN us.. but de feeling's gone now. i realised de bliss.. n was sitting down dere observing de smiles on deir faces.. de rubbish dey were tokin abt. dat's enuff.. enuff to noe dat everyone's happy, at least for dat moment i observed. wad's gna be bothering us next, definitely not studies. but trg, n de toopid PW. trg as in.. u noe position in main team or even sch team.. yes. i forsee it, de fear dat some of us gna feel, soon.
i somehow feel dat actually i'm not de one who changed (in a way). hakau too. dun think i'm de only one wif doubt. peanuts too. i'm not de only one whose attitude towards him changed. dim sum too. i think... guess de story wun proceed any further.. n hsin, de story u planned.. it seemed so far away. so oor. but for once, it seemed so hopeful.. but when lookin at how things r now, de story is jus yet, another fiction.
it was so near, yet so far.
before i realised it, i tot i'll nv regret how i wan myself to feel now. play is good. but when i realised it, i somehow missed it.. somehow kinda emo abt it.. how? someone teach me. maybe i need night safari.. so i wun miss hakau if one day i lose it.
17 18 19 prime.
dis entry is soo coded. so coded.. patience i need it, but not for me, for him.
