Tuesday, September 13, 2005
phew!! finally!! i done my EOM. lik took how long la! *faint* yes. fainting soon.. another nite w/o slpin. wad's new. haven touch books for 2 days le.. having a lil sense of guilt, dat's gd! haha! guilty when i think of my mama.. de hope she's pinning.. bearing de burden of only child. thinkin of de expectations frm my uncles n aunties (in a gd way).. somehow.. jus suffocates me. i noe i hav to study hard. but am i? am i? ashamed to ans.. jus lik how discouraged i am to start working hard now.. when i noe dat time's running out. dun wanna be disppointed by de hard work i put in (if i did). i'd rather think dat i can do it if i work hard.. den think dat i worked hard hard, but jus cldn't make it up dere.. dat explains my constant slacking attitude i guess. self-delusive i am. admit it, giel. i hate disappointment more den regret. not many r lidat.. but i am.
*off to drink coffee* brb.
i'm really not studyin for promos. i hav to do sth abt dat.. maybe attach a million dollar note to my blank exam papers? if i hav a million dollar of cos. ok. wad now? dunno. dun worry.. i MIGHT jus be so motivated to study de next min i log off. too random.. is it good or bad? think it's de late night toture of EOM dat drives me mad now.. typin rubbish, as usual. haah!
i'm smiling.. *gummy grin* =D haha!
i'm in love wif a new CHINESE song. though it doesn't apply to my life.. but de tune is so saddening.. jus love it.
