Wednesday, August 17, 2005
day started off well.. not till.. sigh. drop it. guess dey r thinkin if i'm serious in dis..
germ: "u r nt serious abt it rite?"
maymay: "i think she is.."
tric: "no la.." paused. "i mean, she's not.. rite???"
i kept silent.
guess i'm on my way to become serious but not yet dere.. still able to take a U-turn to where i started frm. now, another complication to make it more complex. well, great. actually, it's not a gd thing at all.
i'm QUITE affected i guess. i'm sad, yes.. buuttt.... not exactly very sad oso.. jus a "haiz.." n wif alot of "if onlys" inside my head. well, "if de world doesn't suck, we'll all fall off."
told hsin abt it. she felt my pain.
it's alrite! i'm not exactly hurt or sad.. jus cannot be totally happy lik how i used to be for some time ba.. maybe 70% my usual happy self? n maybe 60% my usual crazy self? oh no, guess i'll be crazier n weirder. lik scribbling more at maths lect. ha.
i sound lik i'm actually serious abt dat, but not yet. really, not yet.
it jus make my day sometimes.. but today, it was greyish. it'll remain greyish for a while.. till de rain falls or when de cloud clears.
my left ankle is not doing well.. it got worse jus now. goin to see a betta physician soon.
snicker's analogy became more complicated, i do not noe how to continue. teach me, someone.
U1 will nv understand. U1 wun even get an idea at all.. but i'm happy for u. really. jia you!
U2, i dun wanna hurt anyone. we're jus gd frenz.=)
U3, no pt tokin. no pt. so wad if dere really is misunderstanding? things will not change. nth will change much frm now. u'll only get betta slps, dat's all. so jus forget it, n move on wif ur life.. a NEW life dat u've owaz wanted..
i tot u dun deserve to be rejected, but it came to a pt when i think u deserve more den JUS dat.=)
i'm blogging everyday la dis mth. wad has gotten into me? boredom? maybe. hsin, i noe WR n WL too!! wahaha. i'm genius giel leh.. n gorgeous germaine (puke), i'll say sth to u de next time i see u running on track during bb trg. geylang chick, phy will be left wif me n u..=( drag de xiao de join us!! hahaha! maymay, NO more choc for u i warn u!! u betta stop all dese toopid food ar.
it's a chore to understand me. dun hav to try. it's either a can or a cannot.
