' shut up and listen.. '

Sunday, July 31, 2005

feeling random.. who doesn't? i cant get myself to study.. i jus cant.. i can nv stay wif notes for long.. y cant i? *angry* (at myself)

jus went a lil frenster surfing.. realised i hav 6 ppl in my acc whom i dun really noe.. haha!

everytime when i'm alone.. i feel so random dat i'll think abt why things happen de way dey do? n i owaz come to de same conclusion.. only God knows why. frustratin but wad can i do?

if someone was to ask me, "wad to u, is the moz impt thing in life", i wld say SORROW. yes. so sad, but true.

JOY n LOVE came to my mind.. but w/o sorrow, how will u ever realise dem? joy comes aft u went thru sorrow.. u'll only experience love when u sense de joy in it? am i not rite? think abt it.. we'll take things for granted, we wun noe wad's joy if dere's no sorrow.. as much as i do not wan to acknowledge the importance of pain n sadness, i hav to.. dey make me realise how fortunate i am.. now u think.. u wld rather live a life wif more joy or a life wif more sorrow? dis is wad u get.. if u choose a life more of joy n less of pain, u'll rmb de hard times ur whole life.. dey'll haunt u everywhere u go.. cos dey happen so lil times dat u can nv forget de pain.. but if u choose one dat's more of sorrow n less joy, u'll rmb de happy times all ur life.. cos dey jus seldom happen.. pathetic huh? however, u'll become a much stronger person.. a much independent person.. but who dares to choose de life wif more sorrow den joy though it sounds betta.. no one will.. i dunno how to put it thru.. i cant put it in words.. too many tots in my head.. haiz.. do u get wad i'm tryin to say to u? no u dun.. i wun if i were u.. but i'll try to make it clearer de next time i hav all my tots sort out ya?=) haha! i'm tokin to myself..

we're all busy.. so busy wif our own lives dat we became oblivious to de lil things happening ard us.. things dat might seem unimportant can be so so impt... u dun get wad i'm tryin to say again? alrite.. i'm jus ranting.. yes. cos i'm feeling random.

hav u ever wondered He dropped many hints to u to things dat're gonna happen? He gave u many options to choose.. He planned so many paths for u.. it's u who chose de path to ur life.. u cant blame Him for wadeva outcome.. it was YOU who chose dis path right frm de start. hate urself, not Him. but ultimately, if u believe, i believe dat we'll still end up blissful, blessed n happy. i'm not lamenting over my life right now.. jus.. again, feeling random.. n jus tot thru wad's life all abt.. it's actually very very simple.. but it's ppl's tots dat make it complicated.. it's ppl's weariness dat make it unpredictable.. it's ppl's doubt dat make it mysterious.. it's ppl's evil intentions tt make it suck. haha! yea, dat's my conclusion.. lik wad ppl say "if de world doesn't suck, we'll all fall off.." accept it, live it.

penned at*7:54 PM