' shut up and listen.. '

Friday, July 15, 2005

Empty spaces fill me up with holes
Distant faces with no place left to go
Without you within me
I can’t find no rest
Where I’m going is anybody’s guess

I’ve tried to go on like I never knew you
I’m awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I’m going to be is ???--i'm still tryin to find out

Voices tell me I should carry on
But I am swimming in an ocean all alone
Baby, my baby It’s written on your face
You still wonder if we made a big mistake

I've tried to go on like I never knew you
I’m awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I’m going to be is (definitely not incomplete)

everytime when i take bus 7 back home frm town, i'll definitely be reminded of him. each n every single time.. cos i'll pass by his place. past few times were not as bad. but today was damn emo for me.. too much was recalled.. part of me wanted to go back, de other part was thinkin i was totally insane. maybe cos i was listening to some emo songs when i was on de bus.. haha! n i was damn suay again, missed bus 282 aft i alighted frm bus 7.=( so i had to wait damn long for another 282 to come, which meant i had more time to emo.. he used to wait for 282 wif me at dat bus stop..but he wasn't, n will nv be dere wif me anymore.. den i saw a cockroach!! u know how scared i was?? u hav no idea la! i dare not move la! i lifted my legs away frm de ground while seating on de bench. legs damn tiring can? but tt reminded me of him again. dunno y, dat bus stop owaz can see cockroach one.. lol. maybe cos dere's dis big drain behind de bus stop.. he used to be dere to protect me frm de cockroach, he wld scare dem away.. but dere was no one dere to notice my fear jus now. no one, anymore. i really suddenly missed him alot.. he muz be laughin at me rite now, for giving him up.. he moz prob cldn't feel a thing for someone called giel.. finally, 282 came, n i was more den delighted to get away frm dat bus stop. i was thinkin of him on 282 as well.. de whole journey home, he didn't leave my mind. while i was still listening to my mp3 in de lift, "incomplete" by bsb was played.. de lyrics really described how i feel.. but i wasn't incomplete.. but lost. i'm kinda lost, i dunno if i still love him.. but i do miss him at times.. i dun wanna take bus 7 home frm town, but dat's de fastest way home.. 143 takes damn long la! so everytime when i was abt to go to n fro town, dere's owaz a dilemma in me. 143 or 7? i chose 143 dis morning, but 7 jus now, at nite.

penned at*11:46 AM