' shut up and listen.. '

Wednesday, June 29, 2005

haha! i'm not feeling stressed. n THAT'S THE PROBLEM.

i wanna sound hardworkin, i wanna seem hardworkin, i wanna be hardworkin!

i regretted not studyin hard enuff for PSLE, n O lvl. dun wanna regret for A lvl.. someone teach me wad to do.. study? of cos i noe i need to study. i even got a great PLAN to study hard enuff for CT. but i'm not following it. i planned great things, but hav nv done any. i set great goals, but hav nv worked towards dem in anyway.. well done, giel! keep up de good work! (if u dare to..) haha! how??

i need to do some soul searching. not sole searchin, which i can jus easily twist my ankle n i'll find it. it's a million times much more effort for de former. i can say i wanna do dis i'm GONNA do dis.. but ultimately, u'll see me on somewhere much deviated frm where i wanna be. it's jus me. i dream big, but nv giv enuff to be dere. i tok big.. "i'm gna do dis! i'm gna do dat! i will!" BUT.. u noe, all r jus bullshit.. y cant i jus keep to wad i say? y r u such an idiot, giel? haha!

see, tml i've got econs paper.. i still got alot to study for econs n phy.. n chinese, wad's dat? nv even plan to study anythin. haha! ppl wun believe i got an A1 for O's when dey look at my CT chinese results. i'm sure.. every good grade i get, is shure tyco shit lor.. many others deserve more to be where n wad i am.. i'm jus fortunate to be who i am..=) i noe.

i shld appreciate chances n nv throw any away. cos everyday, i'm livin in someone else's dream..

penned at*6:36 PM