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Saturday, June 25, 2005

weird.. dis morning (while still slping), i dreamt of someone. someone whom i've neither seen nor talked to for quite some time. let's name dat person "15". 15 jus appear in my dream lidat.. n it seemed so real.. suddenly, aft i woke up, i got reminded of de good times we shared. i miss 15.. i tot i forgot abt 15.. y i jus had to dream of 15? i cld feel wad i'm supposed to feel in de dream.. every single twitch of de heart, i remembered. dat kinda familiar feeling, dat kinda suppression... it's indescribable.. it's beyond my english ability to do dat perhaps. my dream reflected how i wld exactly react if it came true. n i noe i'll feel wad i felt if it was to really come true. confusing heh? i'm confused too..

i woke up, feeling different. being different. thinkin different. used to wake up thinkin of my darlings (netballers). but not today.. i was reminded of de mask i used to hide behind, de mask dat was long discarded. or was it nv gone? i'm confused, again. i tried lookin for ans.. i looked into de mirror n stared into de eyes. i saw spaces.. i searched my soul, but found nth, nth at all (stop singing germ, sry, random.) i've only got a blurred fingerprint of wad i'm feeling rite now, no other clues were left behind.

if i were to really meet 15 any of these days, i mite do things dat i nv tot i wld.. den i mite say things dat i nv tot i cld.. n finally, i mite hav done de moz undesirable thing i ever shld.

giel, it's jus a dream, dun live in it.. come back to reality. n reality is, u've nv seen him. u shldn't be dreamin! u DREAMT. WAKE UP.

oh! i think i noe y i dream of 15.. maybe cos ytd rite b4 i slp, dis song was played on perfect 10.

Notice me, take my hand
Why are we strangers when
Our love is strong
Why carry on without me

Everytime I try to fly,
I fall Without my wings,
I feel so small
I guess I need you, baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you, baby

I make believe that you are here
It's the only way I see clear
What have I done
You seem to move on easy

I may have made it rain
Please forgive me
My weakness caused you pain
And this song's my sorry

At night I pray
That soon your face will fade away...

it's been half a year.. yet, it seemed lik ytd..

penned at*8:15 PM